Effing hormones

If this is part of getting older, it can screw itself. I never used to have much of a problem with PMT - mostly physical symptoms and a bit of "edginess" a couple of days before I bleed. The last several months, my breasts don't seem to be acting reliably football-like at such times, but I'm feeling it more emotionally. This week, I've been up and down like a yo-yo (with the extremes apparently being bolshiness and insecurity), and it's driving me insane. And probably anyone I encounter.

Tomorrow I have a stupid seminar I don't want to attend that I need to be at by 8:30 (and that's pushing it - "mingle" time starts at 8). I hate those sorts of things (I can look at the website if I want to learn about a product... but my boss is interested and can't attend), and I also hate being anywhere work-related before 9am. And I also hate having less than 8 hours' sleep, and since I'm still up pissing around on teh intarwebs, I won't be getting that either.

What I feel like doing right now is something that involves drugs and/or copious booze and/or rampaging sex. With someone else. Since the relatively healthy option is not one I can avail myself of right now, and I really am too "good" to do the other two, I'm having to listen to loud thrashy music (...despite all my rage, I'm still just a rat in a cage...) to try and do something with this displaced energy. I've tai chi'd myself up the wazoo this week, which while it hasn't helped this particular issue, should ensure that I'll pwn all on Thursday (which is not actually the aim, and at the pathetic level I'm at, is totally laughable... but maybe I would have achieved something constructive with this week).

Blah blah rant. See, I've been trying to not do the ranting thing online since Saturday... futile. I just have to suck it up. Fuck.

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Can I just say that I love Google Docs, not least because of the publishing to L/J functionality? I can't access L/J at work (well, I can, but it's advisable not to), but Google Docs is just fine. The same blogging functions existed in Writely, which of course Google acquired and rebadged. Also, I think the killer app with Docs is the ability to collaborate online, without having to email stupid document attachments and revisions back and forth (with decent versioning tracking).

Also, if you haven't run across it yet, Google Notebook is a handy wee item too. I've been using micro wikis for organising notes on my machines (bladeWIKI at work and on my PDA, and Tomboy Notes at home (not just because I like the name of the latter, heh)) - I like the fact you can link them together and browse through whatever tree structure you come up with (and they're searchable, of course). Google Notebook is like a handy way of doing similar stuff online - you can clip stuff directly from webpages, link to other notes, and publish/share them online (like Docs). The only problem - compared to something more wikified - is that while you can create multiple "notebooks" and multiple sections in a notebook, you can't interlink between them conveniently. Each notebook and section has a unique URL, so you can do it manually... but it'd be nice to have it built-in. It's still in Google Labs, so maybe the functionality will be added.

And after that digression, I've entirely forgotten what I wanted to post about. As for my grizzles yesterday, it's all better now (despite being 3 days early and owie). Goddamn those hormones. The seminar was still a waste of time - I mean, I really do have better things to do than sit with 30 men (I was the only female - of course - and we were addressed as "guys" throughout, GAH) stuffing their faces at a "free" breakfast while being powerpointed to oblivion, but at least I didn't have impulses to chop anyone's body parts off, and the product itself is still worth investigating.