One day, maybe...

[trixtah]

The nice thing about YouTube and such things is not just music, but being able to find a huge variety of clips on pretty much anything of interest. This is the best Hun Yuan tai chi clip I've found yet. Just lovely. Ignore the n00b comment in the post that questions how accurate the form is - from my limited understanding, it's spot on. And it looks gorgeous too. It's fantastic to see the flow when a top practitioner does an entire form; I love the dynamic leaping movements that then end with his feet seemingly planted to the earth. He's got a whole pile of other videos which include the 38-form "Cannon" version, and a sabre form. The 9-section whip is fascinating (although the video isn't that clear). There's a mini-doco on the whip here; the master who demonstrates in the second half is amazing.

Anyways, one of the benefits of tai chi and many other meditation and martial art practices is supposed to be an enhanced sense of calm and balance. I also go to the osteopath semi-regularly, and that sends me off into another zone as well. However, as I mentioned to saluqi and faxon yesterday, it doesn't seem to necessarily be a positive thing. If I do good tai chi (relatively speaking!) or have a big osteo treatment, I feel very calm and quiet and open. Then something comes along to upset that calm, and it sends me into instant irritation. I got severely irritated with a manager shoulder-tapping me about something relatively trivial after an osteopathic treatment on Friday. While I wasn't outright rude, it was bordering on it, and despite the fact I'm an evil snappy Cancerian most of the time, I can normally express irritation without being rude and in less potentially self-damaging ways.

I suppose when I'm really evolved, feeling open and acutely-aware won't necessarily translate to "vulnerable" and "over-sensitive". Speed the day. Although it's nice to know that I'm apparently not the only one.

Comments

[filkferengi]

You too? I was just at Conflikt [.org], a new filk con, last weekend. It was wonderful, especially the final hours, singing songs of community together in a circle. Then I had a fun visit with mmegaera for a day or so, then had to head home. Granted, fatigue from ongoing sleep shortage & being worn out from over 12 hours of travel, still--after having a head buzzing with euphoria for a couple of days, I came home & was very snappish with the person I'd been thinking warm fuzzies at & missing for days & days. I generally call it post-con letdown.

[trixtah.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I think that one's the having-to-be-"on" syndrome, which I personally find tiring. Yes, I like being friendly, cheerful, engaged and participating, but it all requires energy that at can be a bit of a drain (especially for introverts like moi). You get back into familiar surroundings, and can switch off... but having that decompression time being interrupted with what might feel like fresh demands (and even needing to pay someone a normal degree of attention can feel that way if my reserves are low) makes me snappish too. Of course, when your physical reserves are low too, that certainly doesn't help!

[filkferengi]

This was with having allowed 6-8 hours in bed each night, for pacing purposes. Of course, in bed does necessarily mean asleep, & not even in a happy way in this case [nerves & excitement & general anticipatory & post-euphoric squee].

Having to be "on"

[filkferengi]

That's why it's so restful sometimes to just sit back & enjoy the floor show, rather than having to *be* the floor show.